Being an Aries and a person who is passionate and curious about so many subjects in LIFE, sometimes I start things, only to get distracted by the next shiny new thing. Starting new projects is something that comes very easily to me, finishing those projects is not always what happens.
Not to say that I never finish, I do complete much of what I set my mind on. I’ve performed in theater, produced dance spectacles, produced fundraisers, traveled to a foreign country alone to get my ESL certificate, completed a youth yoga training, earned my bachelor’s degree in multi-disciplinary studies. What I have noticed is that when my heart and creativity are aligned with my mind, its more likely to get my full attention.
On April 19th of this year I completed a 200-hour Yoga Teacher Certification with Everyone Yoga School. I went into it to deepen my own practice, to learn more about yoga philosophy. I also really desire to come out of my shell and accept my essence with full abandon for what others think about it. I cant say that happened entirely, but I am getting closer to such radical acceptance for the messiness of life.
When I first started practicing yoga in 2001 I was a fragile and broken person. That first class opened me up to my feelings in a way that I had never experienced. By dropping into my physical self, I was able to for the first time access a part of myself that had been hiding, scared and lonely. I became “addicted” to feeling things. This wasn’t always expressed in a healthy way. I spent many nights indulging in feelings of loneliness, insecurity, and suffering. I also experienced deep joy for the first time in many years. I danced freely and spun myself in circles in the presence of the little kids in my life. I learned to listen to my intuition and learned how to move on from stagnating relationships and jobs and move toward newness and novelty.
I feel the most alive and in the present moment when I am in relationship, making love, spending time with children and in ways that require me to be embodied.
Dance is my first love. It comes naturally to me. I cannot remember a time when I was not able to move to any kind of music. The difference is now I can move with no music, just inspired by the feelings I am having. Since December of 2013 I have been holding space for ecstatic and transformational dance. Inspired by my experiences with 5 Rhythms, and under the guidance of a friend and fellow mover-traveler, Eugene Hedlund, I get to host Shedding Skins a few times a month in my home city Tulsa, OK. It is such a joy to witness others in the dance, shedding their own baggage, drama, turmoil or letting go of expectations for joys to come. Tulsa is now part a part of a growing tribe of conscious movers and what an honor and a privilege.
Since beginning my relationship with yoga I have tried many different styles: Ashtanga, Bikram, Yin Yoga, Kundalini and Hatha, among many others. But my love is for Kundalini and I look forward to deepening my understanding of the incredible ancient technology of this magical and healing style of engaging with my self, and my surroundings. Since graduating, people ask when I am going to teach, where, what kind. I was offering the gift of yoga even before this training, so perhaps I am not as excited to launch myself onto Instagram. My preference is to offer yoga to marginalized groups such as my incarcerated, addicted and poor brothers and sisters. This practice of service yoga speaks to me and my desire to make life SEVA.
With that said, please join me for class if you are interested in giving Kundalini style yoga a chance. You can find my class schedule on my new Facebook page Open Heart Yoga and Dance. We meet on Monday nights at 306 Phoenix Avenue in Tulsa at 6pm-7:15. There is a sliding scale offering suggestion of $10-$20 to support the venue.
I hope to see you soon for yoga or dance in Tulsa and please stay tuned for more offerings in the realm of conscious movement and SEVA.
Much love in the Dance,